Whine Snob

I'm one of those roll-your-eyes-when-someone-whines kinda gals. Buck up and move on for crying out loud. Unless, of course, it's my own drama... then it's on. If any of you follow me on Twitter, am a friend of mine on F/B or are lucky enough to see or talk to me daily basis (*sarcastic*) you know it was a pretty crummy week. I was in a whiny, blue funk and eager to share the wealth.

I didn't even want to be around me.

We got good and bad news regarding our case and I took the negative and ran with it. I had been told by people from our therapy group not to get all caught up in the roller coaster ride. The only thing that is certain is no one on your case can predict the outcome. I always thought I would be able to process the information and not get all jumbled up-crazy over it.

Boy howdy, was I wrong..

DH was out of town most of the week (lucky lucky man) and it was Nantie that told me to put on my Big Girl Panties and get over it. It's truly a waste of precious time. I've got to fully give it up and hand it over to Him. Honestly, I think Satan is doing a jig over me being all caught up in the doom and gloom of what can be.

In your face, bud.. I'm not going there anymore.

So, in the time (we think) we have left, I will try to focus on the hilarity of the two beautiful little people we are blessed to have in our lives. We will throw them a big birthday party which, for the record, may have more people in attendance than our wedding. What the?

If they do return home, I don't want to look back on our last few months as being wrought with stress. They easily pick up on all those bad vibes and internalize. It's not fair of me to put that on them. I am going to try with all my might (and prayer) to relax and let it be..

.. there will be an answer.. Let It Be..

My 30's In A Nutshell

A month before I turned 30 (a year after Mama passed away) I found out I was an adopted county baby.

The day I turned 30 - I was thrilled my (now ex) husband made it home (from a week long binge) to celebrate the joyous occasion.

31- I hooked back up with my old high school friend, Brenda (thank the Good Lord above). After 6 years I kicked the ex to the curb as the realization finally sunk in that I could not save him from his drug addiction. You can't save someone that doesn't want to quit.

32-Met DH

33-35 ~ Life was for once drama free and amazingly calm.. juuust right.

36 - Bought our home together.

37 - Got hitched.

38 - Tried but couldn't get pregnant.. Plan B (adoption) was set into motion and our home study to become foster to adopt parents begun. Through a series of events I reconnected with my father that I hadn't seen for 20+ years. It was beautiful and heartbreaking all at the same time.

39 - Got certified with a local county and our 2 beautiful twins were placed with us. A roller coaster indeed but we wouldn't have it any other way.

This past decade was filled with big blessings, new beginnings, loads of laughter and love. I have no room to complain.. I honestly never knew how young 40 was until I was standing staring at it face to face.

Crow's feet and all..

T-Minus 3 Weeks..

.. and I'll be kissin' my 30's goodbye.

Fare thee well..
Arrivederci..
Adios..
Auf Wiedersehen..

***bottom lip quivering, blinky blinky blue eyes tearing***

It's not going to be pretty, people!

I'm compiling a list of gift hints for DH I thought I would share:

I could sure use this:

Would be totally okay with this:

Don't know which red carpet event I would wear these to but would be happy to work it out later:


WHUPS.. reality check..

Would be HAPPY for this:

Would totally go for this:

Oooooohhh and THIS:

Might grumble but would eventually come to appreciate this:

Honestly, I'm a low maintenance kinda gal and would be pleased as punch just to get some of this:


I've entered a warning (er, date reminder) in his Blackberry. We'll see..

The Bright Side

Thank you everyone for your wonderful comments, emails of encouragement and for sticking with me as I moan and groan ('cause I despise whiners, too!).

The good news is I've decided to look on the bright side and am going to list the things I can do now before we have a kiddo placed with us. My Grand Plan is to affix said list on the 'fridge so I don't forget to enjoy this part of the journey. I would love it if ya'll would leave your suggestions and help me get past my whiny, blue funk..

Things I'm going to do before we have a child placed with us:
** Have a lovely glass of wine on the patio and enjoy a quiet evening.

** Sleep in on the Saturdays I don't work.

** Use the bathroom ALONE.

** Have another glass of wine at dinner.

** Run in and out of a grocery store in record time to pick up a few items.

** Soak in the tub, undisturbed (hey, don't forget the wine!).

** Not smell like poopy diapers.

** Enjoy a hot, sit down meal at home with DH.

Lana Said: **Not find out at WORK that you have orange crusty residue in your hair. Courtesy of the cheese puffs your child had been munching on the night before.. Not that it has ever happened to me...cough cough..

Rubi Agreed: **How I would SOOOOO enjoy taking a bubble bath or actually taking a pee pee without a kid beating down the door.

Lizzie Lamented: **ENJOY any TV show or movie that isn't on PBS, Disney, or Nickelodeon...your TV will not leave those channels once your babies arrive...unless it is to put in a DVD of THEIR choosing that will play over and over and over. I miss "rated R" movies and soap operas!

Kim Sighed: Not having to try and find a scarf to cover up the stains on EVERY SHIRT THAT YOU OWN!

Tiff Said: Oh, there are so many things you get to do, it's great that you recognize the blessing you have right now! Enjoy eating a tasty dinner while it is still warm. Enjoy cleaning a room, walking away, and coming back to find it in the same clean condition you left it in. Also, appreciate the fact that the normal time you wake up for work will be considered sleeping in once the kiddos come!
Will you have a glass of wine for me tonight? Thanks!
(THAT'S A BIG CAN DO, TIFF!!)

hrw102779 said: Spending quite and quality time with hubby where ever and when ever the mood strikes with out having to worry about someone else walk in on, yelling, crying, or seeing you. :)

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(I am taking my own advise .. If you come calling go 'round back, you'll find me out on the patio)