Friday, December 16, 2011

A Christmas Letter ~ To My Husband

Dear Matt,

I would like to say this is a Christmas season full of joy but really, it's far from it.  You know this is my second favorite holiday (after Thanksgiving) and it has been brutal at best.  I finally got the inside of the house decorated (a half-assed job but I gave it my all) and friends, Uncle JoeJoe and Uncle Mike helped decorate the outside.  I didn't hang your stocking and every time I look at the fireplace I'm reminded of the void.

I'm tired, angry and sad...

The kids are doing pretty well.  LittleBuddy has struggled lately, getting in trouble at school and here at home.  Some things are typical 7 year old boy-issues, others not.  At times he exhausts me but that's nothing new.  I'm bound and determined to raise him up to be a good man.. God as my witness, it will happen.

SweetPea is amazing.. almost totally potty trained, completely sassy, talking up a storm, she sings, counts, dances.. She melted your heart months ago and would do it doubly now.  And oh boy, can she rock a temper fit.  But dammit, she's beautiful.

They both are.

I think the entire family's goal is to survive this season and get it far behind us.  New Years will be equally as tough, as we would snowmobile every year, but that too will pass.  I have huge hope 2012 will be better for all of us.

It has to be.

Until Next Time,

6 comments:

Beth Ann said...

wiping the tears so I can read more....You are one hellava woman Melsie, and as tough as it is now...you are a ROCK for your children. It is okay to still mourn and cry....losing love is a bitch. period. I love you...wish you were closer...hug you everyday and come over and my kids play with your kids...and drink coffee together, share a brewskie, just hang. I love you.

Amber said...

You are an amazing, strong women. Don't ever forget that God *is* watching out for you.

Kristin said...

Thinking of you and praying for you and your family. You are an incredible woman Melissa.

Misty Montano said...

You amaze me for all that you, for how you will triumph, and for all the love that fills you.

Kelsey Stewart, Author said...

God Bless you and yours this Holiday. Your strength inspires me, and I will keep you all in my prayers this year.

Dari said...

Hugs.

 

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