Saturday, August 20, 2011

Just So You Know...

*If you ask me how I'm doing, I'll probably say, "Hanging in there" .. or I might burst out into tears.

*I haven't slept well in over a week and look/feel like utter crap from the inside out.

*You may get a random phone call from me and I thank you in advance for your patience and understanding as I try to process. I truly hope I don't become the friend that makes your eyes roll when my number comes up on your caller id. I promise to return the favor someday. I don't know how but I will.

*I feel badly for not responding back personally to all that so generously donated to the fundraiser, the phone calls, emails, public/private Facebook and Twitter messages. I've heard and read them all and they are precious to me. The money raised is so very very appreciated.. it covered my looming day care bill. For all that put their own lives on hold and came by my side, I thank you all from the bottom of my broken heart.

I also thank God for my beautiful children, my amazing family and friends. If it wasn't for you all, I can't even fathom what this new life of mine would be like.

I am humbled beyond words.

15 comments:

Sara said...

Still praying for you and your family!

Cherie said...

One second, one minute, one day at at time! You are blessed to have so many caring people in your life. God is your refuge, tuck yourself into his arms (he's holding your hand too!) Love ya!

Sunday said...

You are all still in my heart and prayers.

Melissa, Multi-Tasking Mama said...

Continuing to pray for you..I love you Melissa and admire your strength so much!

Lavender Luz said...

First of all, friends don't keep track of favors. Second of all, I don't consider anything of the past couple of weeks a favor.

Thirdly, I think you are beautiful and strong, even at your most tired and weak.

Lastly, I love you. I would cheer to see your name on my caller ID.

Kristin said...

You never ever have to apologize for calling on any of us.

Continuing to pray for you and your family.

Awaiting a Child of God:) said...

Another friend told me about your blog. I had to let you know that even though I am a stranger to you, I am praying so much for you. I can't imagine your pain. God bless you and know that the Lord is holding you throughout all of this. Hugs

megs said...

We are praying for you, and thinking of you, and hurting for you.

Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessesd be your name.

mum of 2 adopted boys in UK

Lucretia said...

There's no "right" way to grieve, nor to survive, nor to behave amongst friends. There's just the way you do it - and those who love you? Love you for who you are, not for what you do or don't do.
My thoughts and prayers are still with you and your family Mel.

invitroveritas said...

Just stopping by to say how sorry I am for your tremendous loss. My thoughts are with you.

Jem said...

Please accept my most sincere condolences. As part of the IF community, please know you and your family are in my prayers.

LFCA

Laurel said...

I've been thinking of you and the kids and your family and have been praying for peace, comfort and strength. I love you, lady.

beemommy said...

Melissa, I just found your blog. Sorry is such a powerless little word but I am. When our daughter died 21 years ago, my biggest fear was that people would forget her. My advice to family and friends who follow this blog is to not be afraid to mention this kind, gentle man...yes, there will be tears but to talk about him is a need. I can tell you that time will help...My advice (like I'm some big ol' expert) to you is not to be afraid to cry, to laugh...this is so normal. Expect your two little ones to become velcro-kids...they've lost so much in their short lives. But also, don't be surprised if one of them tries to distance themselves....to protect themselves in case you go away as well. (I know you're not going anywhere but kids don't process like adults do.) Give yourself as many breaks from doing what you "should" do to do what you need to do. Take care, Jeri

alicia said...

Melissa,
I am just back on blogger after a long break and catching up. I was shocked to read what has been going on. I am so very sorry for your huge loss. My heart is breaking for you. I can't even pretend to understand what you are going through. You are in my prayers. Your beautiful kids are in my prayers. I wish I had more to say, but just know it's genuine...
praying...

stellarparenting.com said...

I have come and gone from here for some time, you know just popped in to see what was uo and how your were fairing,. I am saddened to hear of your loss and I can only begin to imagine how very hard the coming days/weeks/months will be. May you find comfort in the places you are loved.
blessings.
J.

 

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