Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Acceptance

Definition: the act of assenting or believing

We had a visit tonight from one of our workers and our suspicions were confirmed. Since court in June mom has kicked it up a notch and is actually on track to getting Jack and Jill back. A lot still needs to happen but there's every indication she will keep it all together long enough to appease the courts. I pray for the kids' sake it's not a dog and pony show.

The rest of the summer is really just a long goodbye. Our hearts ache but we cling to the fact we've done our very best by them. They are not the same children they were when they first came. Jack arrived sullen and fairly nonverbal now stands up for himself and refuses to let Jill talk over him. He's clever and an absolute ham. Jill still tries to be the center of the universe but allows brother to steal her thunder. Sometimes. They declare McDonald's breakfast, "JUNK FOOD!" and have tried (and even liked) all sorts of new food (including veggies and fruit).

Time will pass and their memories of us will undoubtedly fade. Their little souls, however, will never forget.

I have faith in that.

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

I have lurked but never commented. I pray for you and your 2 little angels. I cannot imagine ever having to go through what you are right now. You have made a mark in these kids lives that will never be forgotten. I could only hope that if something ever happened to me or my husband that my kids would be placed in such a loving home.

Heather said...

I think your last lines say everything there is to say.

((hugs))

Lavender Luz said...

Oh, Melissa. I ache for you. And for them. You have certainly been a blessing in the lives of J&J. And you are a woman of grace and compassion.

Lean on your friends when you need to. I'm here.

Nichole said...

You've made a wonderful positive impact on their lives. They were welcomed into a loving home that served it's purpose.

I hope mom is serious about her progress as well.

You will be more prepared for the next placement and one day it will be a permanent one.

Shinejil said...

I have total faith that every little bit of love kids get, even if they don't quite remember it consciously, plays a major role in their development. You may have changed these kids' lives in ways that even they won't understand...

I'm sorry you're looking at this loss, though.

Jeff said...

Don't give up! The system you're dealing with has strange quirks and unexpected surprises. Think positive.

Sheri said...

Melissa -- I am SO sorry to hear about this...BUT I agree with Jeff, don't give up. Keep praying and stay strong in your faith -- even when things seem tough.

I'm praying for you and sending you, your husband and J & J loving, healing energy.

Amber said...

It sounds all too familiar. Will be thinking of you...

mamabunnytam@yahoo.com said...

I will tell you that their memories of you will not fade as much as you think. I feel like I remember everything about my fosters parents (both sets) and I was only four when I was placed. I have many good memories and to this day I am thankful and so happy that they took such good care of my twin sister and I. In fact my adoptive parents helped us stay in contact with them over the years. You are like family to them forever!

 

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