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We got a call from "E" (our wonderful new placement worker) on Friday and it sounds like one of the other families may need respite care over the holidays for two little girls (an 18 month old and 3 year old). Basically, it's baby sitting for another foster family. We are required to do respite at least three times and did it once back in August. It is a great experience for newbies like us and relieves foster parents .. so everyone wins. I told "E" we're home all through Christmas but leaving for a long weekend of snowmobiling on New Years Day.The possibility of doing respite or having an emergency placement has been my motivation for getting the inside of the house decorated for Christmas. My hopes aren't all that high that "The Call" for our placement will be coming anytime soon. I'm sort of in a funk and time seems to have taken it's toll on the excitement level... Bah Humbug.
Honestly, I'm really not feeling the spirit of the holidays this year and believe you me, I love Christmas. Work is cutting hours, gift giving has been scaled way back and deep down I think I'm a little sad we don't have an itty bitty yet. Selfish, right? The upside is this frugal holiday helps focus on The Reason rather than the commercialism of the holiday season.
SO, we await yet a different type of call.
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I don't think it's selfish at all! I think you are being totally honest and realistic! This has to be so hard for you and I can absolutely see how the holidays would be hard.
Thinking and praying for you guys! For any call to come!
There are many selfish people in the world, you, however, are not among them. You are excited, caring and hopeful. The holidays are a hard time in the IF/waiting to adopt world. Stay faithful, stay hopeful, and I'm praying that your forever family finds you soon.
Happy Holidays!
I think everyone might be feeling a little less cheerful this year, but you are right. It redirects the spending splurge and rushed gift giving towards something else, appreciation and helping others. It makes it so much more meaningful.
I read a book this weekend called The Last Lecture. I thought it of it when I read your post. You might have already read the book, but I thought about what he discusses as "brick walls".
He says that "The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. Because the brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough." You have been waiting for so long, but don't give up. The time is there only to make you appreciate it more. You WILL get a call :)
Melissa just remember it is all in His time, not ours. You little one(s) are being watched over by Him and will arrive when its time.
You little one(s) will come when it's time. In the mean time you will be a great help and have so much learning experience by providing respite and emergency care.
Nichole is spot on (comment section). That book The Last Lecture is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. Keep the faith my dearest friend. Good things are awaiting....
It has to be tough wanting to share your life and love with a little person and not being able to. I can't imagine...
I'm praying for you that your dreams can come true this Christmas!
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