Saturday, June 20, 2009

Whine Snob

I'm one of those roll-your-eyes-when-someone-whines kinda gals. Buck up and move on for crying out loud. Unless, of course, it's my own drama... then it's on. If any of you follow me on Twitter, am a friend of mine on F/B or are lucky enough to see or talk to me daily basis (*sarcastic*) you know it was a pretty crummy week. I was in a whiny, blue funk and eager to share the wealth.

I didn't even want to be around me.

We got good and bad news regarding our case and I took the negative and ran with it. I had been told by people from our therapy group not to get all caught up in the roller coaster ride. The only thing that is certain is no one on your case can predict the outcome. I always thought I would be able to process the information and not get all jumbled up-crazy over it.

Boy howdy, was I wrong..

DH was out of town most of the week (lucky lucky man) and it was Nantie that told me to put on my Big Girl Panties and get over it. It's truly a waste of precious time. I've got to fully give it up and hand it over to Him. Honestly, I think Satan is doing a jig over me being all caught up in the doom and gloom of what can be.

In your face, bud.. I'm not going there anymore.

So, in the time (we think) we have left, I will try to focus on the hilarity of the two beautiful little people we are blessed to have in our lives. We will throw them a big birthday party which, for the record, may have more people in attendance than our wedding. What the?

If they do return home, I don't want to look back on our last few months as being wrought with stress. They easily pick up on all those bad vibes and internalize. It's not fair of me to put that on them. I am going to try with all my might (and prayer) to relax and let it be..

.. there will be an answer.. Let It Be..



SocialWkr24/7 said...

I'm sorry to hear that you things are not going the way you'd hoped. :( Sometimes you need to take some time to whine. ;) But its also awesome that you can gain some perspective over the situation and try to fully enjoy the time you do have with the twins. They will certainly reap the benefits for the rest of their lives! I'm not sure if you've read my recent post, but I just talked about working towards reunification... it may be of some help. I will keep you all in my prayers!

Lavender Luz said...

Interestingly, I am doing a post on a similar thing. The place of doom and gloom.

Too bad big girl panties don't keep a heart from being hurt.

I don't know what may come, but I am holding you and all involved in my thoughts and prayers.

XO, Melissa

Nichole said...

I'm glad you are taking the high road and enjoying your time with them. It has to be so difficult to keep your head up, but you're strong!


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