Friday, October 31, 2008
We moved 3 years ago and now live in a neighborhood that is kind of spread out and has few kids. Our next door neighbor brings his grand kids and their friends by for candy. That's it. The big rush consists of 6 kids and an adult.
It occurred to me today that NEXT year we'll (hopefully) be trekking a few miles away to suburbia with our little one(s). Along the way we'll be stopping at Gramsie and Big Daddy's house and head up "the hill" to Missy and My Kiwi's. Ya'll better keep the front porch lights on (we do have keys, ya know).
Thursday, October 30, 2008
At first glance you may only notice her physical beauty. She's simply stunning and has killer sense of style (have you seen her shoes?!). Give the girl a minute of your time and you'll find there's way more to her than what's on the outside. What lies beneath is a wicked sense of humor, intellect, beauty ... and a huge, giving heart.
I can say that because I know from personal experience.
With their platters already overflowing and lives thoroughly jam packed, Kadi and her husband came by my side to help me with a situation involving my father. Being out of state my hands were tied and they were my eyes and ears. I will forever be grateful to them for what they did and what they tried to help us accomplish.
Most of you are her readers that are kind enough to come visit my blog. I have no problem with pity and LOVE that you surf on over!! The other (what, 2?) of you that haven't yet had the pleasure, please head on over and give my little cousin a big ole howdy do! She's my bloggy inspiration and I hope I'm half the Mommy she is. You can visit her at A Womb At The Inn(Sane) and also at the Super Nanny Web Site. A word of warning.. she tells it like it is.. there is no fluff.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
THEN, it dawned on her I said Auntie was moving in.
That boils down to a whole new home study done for her, the training courses and CPR. She took Auntie's name, address and phone number and said she was assigning "D" (our former home study worker) to her case. "D" was totally nice so that's good. HOPEFULLY this can be put on the FAST TRACK and done quickly and painlessly. AH HA! There is no such thing in this system.
I did get a name of our new worker ("E") that is taking "J's" place. They are going to call soon and set up a time for all of us waiting families to get together with her and get to know each other over dinner. Hopefully no alcohol will be served.. it could get ugly (I'm kidding.. er, kind of).
We're still listed on "The Board" (not the Black List, so they say~after my glass of wine at the big shin ding I actually asked) and are considered for each case as it comes in.
REPEATING OVER AND OVER.. all.in.His.time. (why is it never in sync with OUR time!?). LOL
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Tuesday, October 28, 2008
There could very well be weekly court appointed visits which means I will have to take off a 1/2 day of work once maybe even twice a week. This could go on for a year. Oy. Thank the Good Lord I have wonderful bosses that are okay with that but it's still a monstrous bite out of the ole paycheck. Plus my lead foot and the gas gussling suv. On top of all that running, what if the little one gets sick and has to be picked up from day care pronto? We have family nearby but all have really busy lives. I'm sure they would be happy to help in a pinch BUT I needed a solid plan.
I had been trying not to stress about it and have been praying like never before. I know in my heart this is the path we're to be on and it would somehow work out. Have faith..
This weekend, my prayers were answered.
Matt's wonderful Auntie G has moved back to Colorado and is looking for a place to live. Her home here in town is rented out for a year. She needs to find a job to cover her own rent and a place where she has enough room for herself and her lovely Dalmation, Miss Oreo.
A few months back we had offered to have her come live with us. We have plenty of room for her, Miss O and all their stuff. This weekend we revisited that idea. Why not come live with us and, instead of looking for a place to rent and a job, watch baby during the day?!?? That would alleviate me having to miss work and wage, baby won't have to be in day care all day and Auntie's needs are covered as well.
I have a call in to J's supervisor (since I still don't know who our new placement worker is yet) as we need to get Auntie certified. Anyone that spends more than 3 hours a week with kids in foster care need to have a home study done, as well.
Once again, God Rocks!
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Monday, October 27, 2008
Lana from The Kids Did WHAT?! bestowed the Brillante Weblog Premio 2008 award upon my little ole blog. I've seen it out there.. I've oogled and ahhhed all over it... and now it's mine mine all mine! Ahem.. sorry, that's the only-child in me coming out...
The rules are I must:
1. Place the logo on your blog.
2. Link to the person who awarded you.
3. You can nominate up to 5 blogs.
4. You can then add their links to your blog.
5. Leave a message in the comment section to each nominee on their blog.
I pass along this beautiful, shiny award on to:
*Miss Christy at Butterflies In The Car Line
*Tricia at Pure Chaos
*Miss Tori at The Winding Road to Parenthood
*Tiff at Still Seeking Sanity
Thank you again, Lana!!!
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Saturday, October 25, 2008
As I continue to try to enjoy this waiting part of our adoption journey I decided to have some fun while I'm at it. Today is the start of "The Call.. A Guessing Giveaway" and it's your chance to win one of two $25 gift cards from .. drum roll please.. TARGET!!
I kid you not!
In the comment section of this post put your name and the date and time (on the half hour) you think our next placement call will come. Whomever comes closest wins one $25 gift card from Target. Please make sure to check previous posts so you don't duplicate, as it's first come first serve. A second winner will be chosen at random from the posts. The contest runs until Sunday, November 9th at noon (Mountain Standard Time).
If we do not get The Call by the 9th of November, 2 posts will be chosen at random as winners. So remember to only choose dates between now and the 9th of November!! One post per day per person, please!! It's as easy as THAT!!
Grab a button from the sidebar and let your friends and readers in on the fun!
98% OF AMERICANS SCREAM BEFORE GOING IN THE DITCH ON A SLIPPERY ROAD. THE OTHER 2% ARE FROM COLORADO AND THEY SAY, "HOLD MY POP AND WATCH THIS."
You're from Colorado if you'll eat ice cream in the winter.
When the weather report says it's going to be 65 degrees, you shave your legs and wear a skirt.
It snows 8 inches and you don't expect school to be canceled.
You'll wear flip flops every day of the year, regardless of temperature.
You have no accent at all, but can hear other people's. And then you make fun of them.
'Humid' is over 25%.
Your sense of direction is: Toward the mountains and Away from the mountains.
You say 'the interstate' and everybody knows which one.
You think that May is a totally normal month for a blizzard.
You buy your flowers to set out on Mother's day, but try and hold off planting them until just before Father's day.
You grew up planning your Halloween costumes around your coat.
You know what the Continental Divide is.
You don't think Coors beer is that big a deal.
You went to Casa Bonita as a kid, and never went back (yuck).
You've gone off-roading in a vehicle that was never intended for such activities.
You always know the elevation of where you are.
You wake up to a beautiful, 80 degree day and you wonder if it's going to snow tomorrow.
You don't care that some company renamed it, the Broncos still play at Mile High.
Every movie theater has military and student discounts.
Everybody wears jeans to church.
You actually know that ** South Park ** is a real place not just a show on TV.
You know what a 'trust fund hippy' is, and you know its natural habitat is Boulder.
you know you're talking to a fellow Coloradoan when they call it Elitches, not Six Flags.
A bear on your front porch, deer and elk in your front yard doesn't bother you.
Your two favorite teams are the Broncos and whoever is beating the crap out of the Raiders.
When people out East tell you they have mountains in their state too, you just laugh.
You go anywhere else on the planet and the air feels 'sticky' and you notice the sky is no longer blue.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Amber at Mile High Mamas created a Facebook group where, among other things, announcements will be made for special projects. Not wanting to miss out on a cool writing opportunity and wanting to stay in the loop I begrudgingly signed on.
Bren has been on FB for a while now and touted it as being the grownup version of MySpace. Sorry but I don't hold MS in the highest regard (web cam shots of teenagers with trucker caps on sideways? Ya, that's some fun right there). I wasn't buying it.
As DH says, "Don't knock it 'til ya try it!"
Literally within minutes of signing on, old compadres I hadn't heard from since high school (yes, that would be 20 years) were inviting me to be their friend. The instant messages began to fly. It was awesome!
Last Sunday I spent 1/2 a day digging through a box of old pictures, scanning and posting. It has been so much fun reconnecting and having wonderful memories come flooding on back.
A Warning: Families do suffer because of this addiction. My poor husband sits there, eyes glazed over hearing countless stories of yesteryear that end with, "Well, you just had to be there".
FB is way more fun than Classmates and it's FREE! Come over to the dark side and join us.. I'll be your friend.. :o)
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
Meet our dear friend James and his handsome son. They (along with his beautiful girlfriend) came up this weekend for a visit. As any proper host would do, DH put the men folk to work mowing our lawn (nice, huh?).
James was having allergy issues recently and had a battery of tests preformed to see what was going on. One test came back showing his white blood cells were all out of whack and he then tested positive for leukemia. Just days before his chemo treatment was slated to begin, the 2nd round of tests came back showing negative.. it had been a false positive and he dodged the cancer bullet.
My Perfect Moment was the reminder of how fragile our lives are and what precious gifts we have in our friends and families.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
That's right everyone. I'm officially going on record to say that I am eating crow. The dinner last night thrown by the county was just what we needed to get our perspective back. The reason why we chose this county in particular is because of their stellar reputation, the total commitment to the children and their genuine love for what they do. That is why we didn't go with our own county, which has a program in complete shambles.
Remember back when we first found out "J" was our newest worker? How excited we were because she had done our training and how much we liked her? Those memories came flooding back last night. She was as wonderful as ever. Maybe the time she got snarky with me for declining the placement was in part due to a bad day. It wasn't a cool thing to do but we all have crummy moments. I'm going to give her that because she really is a cool, down to earth, caring woman.
Overly sensitive? Moi?!
As for the slide show that I was all bent about? Had the coordinator said it was ALL about the children and not done a shout out for "pictures of everyone" we could of avoided me getting my nose all bent. It was absolutely beautiful and I bawled from beginning to end.
At our table, to DH's left were 2 workers that we chatted with all night. One was actually a lady that did the presentation of the two little sisters we got called on. In a room with well over 200 people, what are the odds of us sitting next to each other? Good, from the looks of it. She and I kept looking at each other like, "I know you!" until it clicked. I braced myself for some type of rebuke but got none. Both ladies were lovely.
DH and I were excited to see some familiar faces from our training back in January and hear of their progress. Only one family from our group (out of a bunch of us) has had a placement so far.. the rest of us are still waiting for the right match. What a relief, it's not just us.
SO, the Good Lord had us there for several reasons. To recharge our batteries, see old friends and slap me upside the head for being so paranoid. Most of all I believe it was to remind us we are part of something very special and to be P.A.T.I.E.N.T. (a four letter word in my vocabulary as you all know). Ah ha.
I'm off to prepare my crow.
Friday, October 17, 2008
The big "Thank You Dinner" being put on by the county is tonight. Yes, it's the schmancy partay with the slide show presentation that had no use for pictures of us. No need for the newbie-childless-folk.
I will be on my best behavior for several reasons:
1) Although I won't allow people in the system push us around, I don't want to do/say anything that will jeopardize our next placement call. Must.play.nice.
2) It's a cash bar.
3) We truly would like to meet people that are in our shoes and make some friends.
4) It's a cash bar.
I'm really not someone that is into confrontation or creating a ruckus. I'm one of those can't-we-all-just-get-along Pollyanna types. People who consider themselves large and in charge tend to read that as, "I'm a human doormat" and think they can walk all over me. They are sadly mistaking.
I'm sure it will be a lovely evening. It's at a beautiful hotel, the menu sounds delish, there will be live entertainment.. and oh yeah, a slide show. I know, get over it already, right?
I just need to stop the whining and look at the bright side. Hello? A night off from cooking and dishes and an elegant meal is really a treat in and of itself!
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Missy and I were chatting the other day and she said we needed to talk about my blog. Inwardly I cringed. When I started this internet journal for our future kiddos she was one of several family members that voiced concern about me putting everything "out there".
We don't discuss my life in the blogosphere much at all really. I can't blame them for worrying, the World Wide Web is a zany place chock full of weirdos. My people just love me .. there's nothing wrong with that.
So the "B" word was dropped and I held my breath. My mind began to spin. I never post personal stories or pictures without prior approval from my victims (er, subjects). What had I done??
Turning blue.. feeling dizzy..
She went on to say that she really enjoys it and it's one of her daily must reads. Exhale. True relief in more ways than one.
Just for that I'll keep on bloggin'. Thank you, Missy... your thumbs up means a lot!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Oh my child, child of my heart.
There is so much to tell you, where shall I start?
I know you're out there, maybe even now.
I know that God will lead you to me, someway somehow.
I may never feel you kick or hear your heart beat for that first time.
But, from the moment that I hold you, there will be no doubt that you are mine.
Maybe even now, your birth mom is considering what to do.
I can only imagine what she is going through.
Maybe she is a child herself, with dreams yet to fulfill.
Maybe she is not ready for a little one, but I know she loves you still.
I know her heart must be breaking, and at night she cannot sleep.
I know if it were possible, it's you she'd want to keep.
On the other side, I am waiting here.
I can sense her love for you and also her fear.
I wish that I could tell her of all the sleepless nights,
of all the tests and procedures and the prayers that this time just maybe it would be right.
I could tell her of all the tears, of all the prayers I've had.
Of the times that I felt so lost, of all the times I've been sad.
I can offer a Mom to kiss away the hurt and tuck you in at night,
I can offer a Dad to teach you to play ball and how to fly a kite.
I can offer a home and a family complete with Aunts, Uncles,Cousins,Granny and Grandpa.
They are all waiting for you, and loving you from afar.
I will share my love with you each and every day.
I will tell you of the woman who loved you in every single way.
I will make sure that you know just the sacrifice she made.
And if you someday want to meet her,
I will never try to dissuade.
For without this special woman,
I would have never had the chance to love you.
My dream of being a Mom, would have never come true.
So, please if you are out there.
Please know I care.
I know what a sacrifice you are making and I would never judge you, that would be unfair.
I am praying for you even now and please know from the very start.
This child will always be a part of you and a child
of my heart.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Here we go:
1) I'm a cold weather kind of gal. Give me winter over scorching summer any day. Let's face it, a girl can layer and layer but can only strip down to so much before it's scary-wrong. Then someone takes a picture with a cell phone and you end up as one of those "priceless" emails that makes everyone want to lose their lunch. Sound like a recurring nightmare of mine?
2) My favorite movie of all time is, "Fools Rush In". I know deep, right? It's the first movie I saw Selma Hayek in and her accent sounded so much like Mama's side of the family it felt like home (and made me cry). Crazy you say? Come to find out, she's from Mom's home town (Coatzacoalcos). Hey, it's a totally adorable and funny movie, too!
3) I was a total jock growing up and awesome at most sports. How and when I morphed into a girly girl is really beyond me.
4) I moved to Colorado when I was 19.
5) My first car was a '68 Dodge Dart and it rocked (OH YES IT DID, BREN!)
6) My first and best job ever was at Marineland in my hometown of Palos Verdes. I was a Pearl Girl. We would shuck oysters that people chose, remove the pearl, price it then schlep the jewelry we sold to set it in. No, I don't eat oysters. *shiver* The park was closed in 1987.
The Pearl Girl circa 1986 (it took FOREVER to get my hair that straight)..
A Kiss From Seymour:
Look at those cheeks!! AAK! Those were some great times. *Sigh*
I now tag:
Rubi from Off My Rocker
Amber at Crazy Bloggin' Canuck
Karla from Rollercoaster Road
Jane Down Under at Adopted Jane
Stella at Mountain Momma
Kim from What's That Smell?
Monday, October 13, 2008
My Perfect Moment this week is thanks to our jackalope. They are a rare species found only in the wilds of Wyoming, hunted by DH himself.
Okay, for all you PETA peeps, he's not real. BACK DOWN. He does, however, make for wonderful tales spun by DH that kids (and dense grownups) actually believe. I look at Jack and relish our goofy sense of humor.
He reminds me how much we love to laugh.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
This month we decided to give the movie "Juno" a whirl. It's a story about a teenage girl that gets pregnant and decides to put the baby up for adoption rather than abort. After hearing all the hype this little Indie film received last year, I was totally skeptical. I likened the rave reviews to "Little Miss Sunshine" which I was sorely disappointed with. If it hadn't been on our list of approved movies, we would of passed on it for sure.
Much to our surprise, it was a delightful film. We've actually watched it twice and enjoyed it both times. It's fresh, funny and smart. I must admit it deserved all the praise and awards it received (including the Academy Award for Best Original Screenplay) and DH and I give it two thumbs way up.
Now I'm off to find me a hamburger phone...
Friday, October 10, 2008
I actually got a call from "J" today. She is the worker that got snarky with me when we decided to pass on our first placement call. My heart skipped a beat when I realized it was her, but alas, it was a false alarm. She wanted to touch base and let me know she's stepping down. Someone will have her position filled by the end of the month and will be in contact with us soon.
She reassured me we are still on "the list" (no mention of a black one but ya'll know my theory) and they haven't forgotten about us (even though it's been a month and a half since someone has dialed us up... whups.. was that my out loud voice? No? PPhheww!). They so appreciate our patience and understanding..
What are the odds in the midst of the transition we get lost in their shuffle? From the looks of things so far, it's a pretty good possibility. On the bright side, maybe the next worker won't have an axe to grind with us. That would be most excellent!
I'm going to put a contest together and have some fun with this. Why not, right? A "Guess the Call Date" kinda thing..
Thursday, October 9, 2008
In the weee hours of Sunday morning I let the little doggies out to potty (not because I'm nice but because they were dancing on top of me, relentless in their pursuit of waking me up). My 3 darling min pins hit the door running and went OFF as soon as they got outside. Oops.. there was a load of elk out in the darkness of the yard.
Barefoot and not dressed for the occasion, I attempted to herd the three stooges back into the house. Hissing several choice words, I might add. After wrangling them in I went back outside to check out the festivities (and holler at the elk to stop yanking branches off our trees ... all the while trying not to wake the 'hood.. as if that would do any good). Suddenly there was a high whining sound and the crash of antlers. Holy guacamole! I realized it was the big boys and it's that time of year. It's rutting season.
With my ever fantastic camera (cough cough) I captured nature as it unfolded before my very eyes...
Okay, so with the help of a photo editor I was able to get this much..
If you click on it to enlarge, stand back and squint both eyes you can make out the 2 large males in the middle of the picture. There is a glow from an eye, also. Can you see them? I wasn't going to get close.. those boys meant business!
So you have the opportunity to actually see some of our guests, the following are a couple of pictures I took last spring of teenagers in the backyard. Aren't they cool?
I'll take an elk encounter over a bear any day!!
What does this have to do with adoption? Nothing.. but it sure beats listening to me whine, right?
*You Are Welcome!*
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
In the system we are called a "Resource Family". The county is throwing a big annual shin ding (like 3 course meal at a very schmancy hotel) for us folk in a couple weeks. The invite said to rsvp, choose a meal (we had a choice of 3) and send some pictures for a slide show presentation.
Well alrighty then.
I satisfied all requests and the response back from the event coordinator was, "Great but.. we're looking for pictures of families with our kids.. I take it you are recently certified, then?"
To which I replied back, "You assume correctly.. we were certified in July and have not had a placement".
(What I wanted to say was, "DEFINE RECENTLY!!!")
Although we are "adorable" (are we 5 or something??), they will not be using the pictures I submitted. Guess we're not really in the club after all.
So, DH and I will be there with bells on and totally feel out of place. Like going to a "Mommy & Me" class without a "Me". The reality is we're the outsiders to a group of outsiders in society. How many degrees of separation does that make?
The bright side is we clean up well so what the heck? An elegant dinner and a night off of cooking and cleaning? You don't have to ask me twice!