Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Adoption Journey Update

Amber asked in a recent comment where we're at in our journey so I thought I would just do a quickie post about it..

We were officially certified in July and breathlessly awaited "The Call". It finally did come in August and was a placement for 2 sisters (ages 2 & 4). They were darling (we saw pictures) but after much heart wrenching deliberation, we decided it was not a good placement for us. It wasn't the girls, it was the case itself and the issues surrounding it that didn't sit well with us.

Although the other social workers totally understood where we were coming from, our placement worker ("J") wasn't all that keen on our decision. She was downright snarky about it. I was certain we were placed on the Black List at the bottom of the proverbial stack and now I'm pretty sure that's a fair statement.

Part of J's job (she told us) was to guide us through the placement process and to keep tabs on us so we didn't feel like we had fallen off the face of the earth. We haven't heard a thing from anyone.

So, the bottom line is we're in limbo awaiting another call. Maybe I'm wrong.. maybe a match hasn't come along that is considered a good fit for us but then again, maybe I'm right. Hard to say.

I've been trying to relax during this part of the journey and enjoy our last bits of freedom and sanity. Honestly, as each day passes, it gets harder to not wallow in the sadness of an empty nursery and of feeling like a loser.

Yep, it's a pathetic pity party and I should be slapped silly for whining. Our life is richly blessed and, just because things haven't been going just my way, I'm pouting about it. It's all in His hands .. I've just got to be patient.



Karla said...

Hoping you get your match soon! You can't let someone else decide what's right for you, I'm glad that you made the decision from the stand point of what is best for all you. Anyone who can't see that is just not worth your time. Keeping you in my thoughts...

Michelle said...

I'm praying for a match for you. I just found your blog. I am a caring home parent for an adoption agency. I hope your wrong about them not contacting you about your decision, you have to go with your heart and your gut feeling. You shouldn't be made to feel guilty about that, when it's your baby or child, you'll know. Good luck!!

Cherie said...

Well, the first thing that comes to mind is that God is still in the works and you have to go through the heartbreaks so that you will love on this little one all that more. Even though your love is already as big as the sky but you know what I mean. It will happen Melissa, don't lose hope. There are so many out there who so deserve the love that you to have to offer. He is still in control! Prayers and love....

bkc223 said...

Don't let that "J" get SNARKY with ya Nice word!). You would think she would be happy that y'all made an educated and heartfelt decision NOT to take the kids. Chin up, my dear. Remember Our Angels won't let ya down.


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